Forgiveness

It takes me forever to forgive people.  Call it stubbornness or anger issues.  But the truth……. it’s because I’m deeply hurt.  It’s hard for me to forgive someone while I’m in an emotional state.  And I swear, it takes like a full year for me to get over it.  A YEAR.  I become self consumed in replaying the scenario in my head over and over. “Why did I let myself get so close, so attached to this person?????” “Why did I allow myself to get hurt in the first place?” “Why did I do so much for that person??” …………………………………Etc.

Once I’m healed, I look back on that pain and see how much I have learned from it.  How much it changed me for the better.

Most people assume I hold a grudge forever.  I don’t.  I do forgive…. eventually.  But I am extra careful with that person in the future.   I protect my heart from making the same mistakes. Sometimes I let people back in after years of not speaking.  No one is perfect.  I take a long time to see the bigger picture.  But once I see it, it all makes sense.

So here I am in 2024.   Forgiving myself for hurting for so long.  Loving who I am as a person back then and today. I appreciate those who support and love me for me.

Do yourself a favor, look back and forgive that person. Really, really try. Oxox.

17 Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everyone. 18 If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone.

ROMANS 12: 17-18.