Burnt Out

It’s been a rough few months.  We finally installed both fences. We started this project back in December.  We are finally in the process of painting the wood. We are half way finished.

It’s April and I feel completely drained. Between the fencing installation and stuff going on at work, I am overdue for a long vacation.  

Unfortunately, I don’t have the funds to take a nice vacation so I feel completely overwhelmed. Irritated over the smallest things. Watch out.

The good news, I have been better at handling my stress.  The old me would go straight to happy hour or cry in my car. 

These days, I’ve learned to take a deep breath and push on.

Even on the hardest of days, I have learned to deal with stress on a healthy level.  I am grateful that I have learned to “lower the volume” when things get too intense. That’s all fine and dandy during the work day. It’s the mornings mid week that is the biggest challenge.

I have been dreading coming into the office for weeks.   The alarm goes off at 6:30am and I can’t move out of my bed. The struggle to shower, get dressed and drive to the office feels like I am going to prison. I just feel so empty. The same job. The same thing over and over. I wake up feeling completely unmotivated.

I have thought about calling out sick.  Taking a mental day. But I can’t.  I would feel too guilty. Taking a sick day when you’re not really sick - feels wrong. I just need to hold on and take whatever vacation days I have left and make the most of it locally.   

Completely unplug from work and social media.

Away from my job and people. 

The End.

 “I survived a Tuesday, and for what? Wednesday? Disgusting.”