Just one of those days

It’s August 8th and I feel absolutely crazy. My house hasn’t sold. All our bills are piling up. And I’m trying to smile like nothing is wrong. This whole year has been one big lesson on Patience and Faith. And right now, I feel like I’m losing it. Since January I have been struggling. Since June I haven’t had a descent night of sleep. I feel totally anxious 24/7. I just need our house to sell so I can feel like I have control over my life again. It’s been a MONTH. No buyers. Why is it, everyone else can sell their house no problem. It’s been a MONTH! It’s a tiny mobile home. Just take if off my hands so I can move on with my life.

Jonathan has been amazing. He is supportive financially and emotionally. He is like the mature adult of this marriage. I’m the one having a fit and complaining constantly. I just want my own privacy back. A home to decorate for the Holidays. I just assumed the house would sell quickly and I would be in my new place by Fall. That is just not going to happen. I will have to sacrifice my favorite holiday this year. No trick or treaters to scare. No costume parties. Just a very simple Halloween of scary movies and popcorn.

We do have plans to do HHN this year in Orlando but I pray we have the funds to do it. My goodness. I am so glad no one even reads this stuff. I am SO depressing to listen to lol. Lord, please hear my prayers. Please sell our house. Please find us a new home.

I am going insane. Help us, please.