Peephole

If you’re anything like me, organization is Key.  I’m just a happier human being when things are in the right place.

But how can you get motivated to organize your life when your depression forces you to stay numb.  That procrastination fog that just clouds over your thinking. 

I don’t even mean being physically active.   Although exercise is very good for you.  I’m not talking about getting out of bed.

I’m talking about the other part of Depression.   

The part that makes you stop everything.

Where you just sit there, staring into nothing. Having the energy to use your brain period seems impossible.   

Paying bills. 

Meeting that deadline.

Staying focus in that meeting.

Remembering that doctor’s appointment….etc.  

Planning that party.

 Etc.

It all seems too much when you’re depressed.  Like I’ve said in my previous blogs.  Stress is the number 1 trigger for me.  

Stress produces Depression.  Depression leads to Fear. Fear leads to Anxiety.   Anxiety leads to procrastination and that turns into chaos!

Together, Depression and Anxiety would come knocking on my door at all hours of the night.  Completely uninvited.

I didn’t want to be rude, so ya know….. I would just let them inside. 

We’d sit there for hours at a time.  HOURS.

“D” is having a cocktail.  “A” is nervously eating chips & dip.   

“A” claims she has it worse than everybody in the room.  “D” slightly tipsy, says no one gets him at all.  

They’re also worried about our bills, politics, inflation, our diet, and why the housing market is so expensive??????

There I am sitting quietly annoyed.  They’re completely selfish, rude, and lack ambition.  I sigh and let them go on and on. I’m mentally exhausted.    “Seriously, WHO invited you guys??”

Once they leave, all their garage is left behind.  So much time wasted.

All because I was too lazy to fight back.

The new me doesn’t open the door anymore.  I simply look through the peephole and tell them nicely-    “I have a plan, I’ll take care of everything”.     

I stop the conversation very short.  Before they even open their mouths. I prevented the endless chatter and they leave …..confused yet nervous.     I left the door not only closed but locked.

I stay inside and make a plan.   I start by looking at my problems and right down solutions. I brainstorm until I find something to help with one task at a time.  Then I move onto the next task. I just make the time.  Whether I get up early in the morning or set some time before I go to bed.   I function better when I tackle my own problems head on.  Confidently and direct.

We tend to put other people first.  Our Jobs.  Our Family.     No, no, NO!   Work out your own problems first thing. 

Once you are organized in your own thoughts, you can continue tackling the rest of your day and be helpful to those who need it.   

The fog will clear up and you will be able to see better eventually.

When Depression and Anxiety come knocking again, simply slip your file/report under the door and say “please review”.   

Let “D” and “A” do some work on their own for a change.  No need to open the door.  They’ll feel better that you have a handle on things and eventually their visits will become less frequent. Get ahead of the problem asap. Stand tall. You can do this!